Conflicted

I had a really great day today and will post about it later. But on the drive home to get ready for the rest of my day, I ended up in a craptastic mood. The kind of mood that has you brushing the tears away while you're driving. Because while driving down the road, I suddenly felt very alone in the world. And then I got angry. Yes, one can discuss all this crap with a therapist but shouldn't there be someone else? Someone whom one can call and say, "You know what? Today I think everything and everyone blows." And I had those kind of people to whom I could say this kind of stuff. They just died in the last year or so. And no one had replaced them. So tonight I feel a mixture of really good and really crappy. Normally I would curl up on the couch or the bed in this kind of mood but I promised a friend to go out. So yeah, I'm taking this crap out on the road. And hopefully no one crosses me.